The end of one year! The beginning of another! As I look back on my what has happened in my life in the past twelve months I remember good times, where everything is right in the world! and I have gone forward with faith, strength and determination. I also remember the not so good moments where nothing is right in the world and it takes all I have to place one foot in front of the other!
I have had many amazing growing experiences this year and I am truly blessed and forever grateful to God for giving them to me! He is so great and so patient as I learn and grow and become the woman He wants me to be. I know that those low points this year were for my benefit and for my growth.
I have had my eyes and heart open this year, to things that I need to be doing in my life and in my home. Some of them will be easy. And some will require a little work and some will require a lot of work and even some sacrifice on my selfish part! I can do it though! (little bit of positivity to keep me going!) ;)
I have always had "New Years Resolutions" because I always wanted to set a goal and accomplish it! Well I never have been able to keep them so I don't really want to set one(again!) if I am not going to do it... so here's the dilemma.... I need to starting doing and changing some things...tomorrow is a new day, a new month, a New YEAR!! what better time to start?!
I guess I could say its just not a "New years resolution" its a lifetime resolution!
It just so happens that that this change I am desiring to make is falling now- at the end of the year and I have the opportunity to start it with a new year! these are changes that I could have and should have made earlier in my life! (yes even as long ago as 15 year!) but I didn't know and have the knowledge that I do now. I feel like its one of those "to everything there is a season, and I time to every purpose under the heaven" types of things. A friend of mine told me that it wasn't my time 10-15 years ago to be going through this and making these changes. This is my time and season to be learning and going through the experiences I have. Its my time to learn and grow through those experiences and have my mind and heart open to being able to understand and change now!....I got off on a side note :) back to what I was saying: It happens that I am choosing now to begin these things... I am all for New beginnings and a new year, and a clean slate and all those sayings and metaphors.... BUT.....To me this is different! this isn't just some "thing" I want to do this year. It's not some goal or dream that I want to accomplish! This is a Whole Life kind of a deal! These are things that I want to become a daily habit!..forever! no matter what! its not the kinds of things that are like everybody does! "eat better" "exercise" "read a book" etc! I am not knocking those! and I am not knocking those who do that! I am just saying that's not what kind of a goal this is!!
You wish I was going to tell you what it is I am doing don't you!?! Well I am not going to be writing that today! maybe someday but not now! If you want to make this kind of change in your life.... you can! open your heart, open your mind, and go find out!!
I pray this year brings the blessings and desires of your hearts! always keep believing in your dreams and goals! always keep faith and hope strong!! Always keep moving forward! even if its a down day and it takes everything! DO IT ANYWAY!! :) (yes that's my 'lil pep talk!)
So in ending...
Happy Beginnings!!
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