Dear Dad,
Since you've been gone, I have wished I could talk to you and have you here with me. I know that I can talk to you and you can be with me and hear me, but sometimes I wish I could feel your arms around me, and have you just hold me when nothing else will do!
Since you've been gone, I have had times where all I do is think back on all the memories I have of you. I have so many wonderful, funny, awesome, educational, and great memories and things I don't ever want to forget!
Since you've been gone, I have longed to hear your voice, singing, laughing, talking, whether its words of encouragement, comfort, or even those guided words of discipline that I so desperately needed.
Since you've been gone, I have sometimes wanted to be that little girl in your arms again, and never have to grow up. I have had many moments where I have ached to hear those emotion filled words you spoke to me on the day of my High School Graduation "Does this mean I have to let you grow up now"? There are times I want to replay that moment in your arms again and again! College graduation, my wedding day, the day I got my house! No daddy, you don't have to let me grow up!
Since you've been gone, I have wanted time and time again to ask your opinion on something, to have you help me with a problem. I have wanted to call you up and see if you needed anything at walmart! ;)
Since you've been gone, I have noticed that I wasn't the best daughter! I look back and I cant change anything but I know with all my heart that you loved me and were patient with me through my times of "bratty daughter"!
Since you've been gone, I want you to know I have felt you with me and I have been so blessed with those experiences even just to know you care, and to know that you know that's all that I need!
Since you've been gone, I want you to know that I wont ever stop replaying my life with you in my mind, I will ALWAYS remember, my very very first memory of you, not long after I was born(even of some protest that I can remember that young, I KNOW its fact!) I will ALWAYS remember every good thing you taught me, and every testimony that I gained from hearing yours, and every teaching moment you embraced, and every "date" we had!
Since you've been gone, I want you to know that I have an amazing husband! I have longed SO many times to just tell you how much I love him and how you would be SO proud of him!! He treats me like you would want and expect him to! But Dad, I'm still your little girl!!
One last thing, I miss you!
And dad, I love you!
Love, Deborah
p.s. Tell Teresa, and Grandma(s) that I miss them too! and since its not yet time for my kids to be with me, please tell them I love them!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uloaEY81hOQ
wouldn't a telephone in heaven be AMAZING! ;)
